Monday, April 23, 2007

Give Me Strength

I tremble, I shake;
Break into a cold sweat.
Take him to a remote lake;
He deserves every piece of lead!

CSA, oh God! Make it stop!
Take it out of my very head…
These thoughts that hop
Every night I lay awake in my bed.

No, my baby it’s not you,
He’s the one who is bad.
He’s the one making you blue;
Hush, my baby, don’t be sad.

I look into her dark, big eyes…
Hoping I’ll ne’er have to tell her.
I feel her gentle sighs,
And realize she’s a dreamer…
(Just like me, just like me)

Oh mama! Why didn’t you hold me?
I called out for you that night!
He took me on his knee;
Said everything will be right!
Oh mama! Why did you leave me?

My baby! I know I’m paranoid…
But that’s the way it’ll stay;
Till I can take you out of this void,
Even if it turns me gray.

(Oh mama! Why didn’t you tell me?)
No, my baby it’s not you,
He’s the one who is bad.
He’s the one making you blue;
Hush, my baby, don’t be sad.

You should have hushed me;
Mama, you should have held me!
Don't tell me you weren’t there;
Don't tell me your mind was elsewhere.
I tried to tell you;
I screamed, I yelled!
I grew too soon, yes mama I grew!
I don’t know where my childhood went…

No, my baby, you be a child…
Throw a tantrum;
Run totally wild…
Don’t listen to this humdrum.
I will be there to guide!
Always be there to guide!

3 comments:

  1. wow... that's deep...

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  3. yup... time to give my emotions an outlet and make a difference in the process! :)

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