Monday, April 30, 2007

I Feel Bangalore! My Bangalore!

Here's something I wrote on 30 sep 2006, when I was waiting for a friend to join me for a game of chess...

It's Bangalore for sure! The smell of food, cigarettes, coffee!! Constant chatter - one voice accented, one speaking the queen's English, some speaking in Kannada, some whispering, some loud! The laughter - quite sniggers, loud boisterous laughter! Conversations about life, about trivial things, about big issues, about self, about friends, about random people!

Alone at the table and nothing to read while I wait for my friend to get her butt here, my mind wanders and rests on a conversation - a couple at a table right next to mine. The conversation entertains for a bit and then, I get lost once again in the hum, the buzz, the life that is Bangalore... a lazy Saturday afternoon, waiting for company, to sit around with a cup of tea over a game of scrabble or chess and just enjoy the Bangalore that doesn't change, not here at least! This is the character of my city...

Koshy's!! Thank you for being here long before I was born and I'll do everything I can to make sure it lasts long after I'm gone!

Multiple Emotions, One Song

New heights to scale;
Don’t look back, don’t stray.
Even for a moment, don’t pause;
Now is the time, go on, lead the way!

Expect nothing, my mind.
Be as you are.
If you want to be kind,
Don’t ask yourself:
Will he care?

Bring out the chalk,
Draw those boundaries,
And roads to walk!
Close your eyes,
Create the shell!
Hold those keys;
Hold them well!

You’ve done this before,
Don’t do it again.
Don’t let the world,
Control your emotions and more.
Your energy is strong,
So full of life.
Bring it out!
There’s nothing wrong,
In living again!

No Games

Don’t say I’ve been na├»ve;
I might just smile and say,
Well yet again!
Yes, yet again…

Sometimes I wonder;
All the time I ponder…
Should I just change?
Become totally cold;
Get totally aloof?

Emotions paint my face;
Excitement shows in my words…
Should I just hold back?
Oh! But that won’t be me,
That won’t be me!

I’ve been told, time and again,
By friends and the world too:
You shouldn’t dream;
And if you do,
Don’t share it with others too.
Would I be me then?
Would I be me?

Oh! I know it’s, a game
People like to play;
Keep them guessing all the way.
I can’t do the same,
Just can’t do the same!

Now, that I’ve been me
With you again;
I just wish and hope,
That you’ll help me,
Help me discover myself.
I want to be strong too.
Baby, make me strong too;
Just like you, just like you!

Tell me it’s Been a Dream

I know and I understand;
The hope continues,
Can’t ignore this feeling,
That we were meant to be.

You are, today, at a different place.
You should know, I will give you all my strength.
I’ve seen it in your eyes…

The way you talk, the way you smile.
Tell me what I’ve seen is just lies;
And I’ll take back, every single
Thing I’ve said, every single
Thing I’ve felt, every single
Word I write.

I know I’ve been a dreamer.
(Oh! Yes, that again)
Tell me that you haven’t
Dreamt… of what can be;
The possibility of something,
That would change every single thing.

Your world and mine,
Will never be the same again.
Tremors will show, on a Richter scale.
The possibilities are endless,
Our world limitless!

Tell me what I feel is fake,
And I promise you I’ll forsake,
Every little dream, every little
Thing I’ve seen, every little
Sign and, every little
Thought of mine!

Friday, April 27, 2007

Go on… Learn

When you think life is boring,
Things pop-up, that
Leave you wondering…

The decisions you make,
The path you take,
Wake you up again.

Excite you, scare you,
Seduce you, mislead you.
Only to bring you back…

Back to your original journey.
Only… you are now,
Stronger, different, pepped up.

New areas about you,
Appear to you, explain to you,
That you are truly, who
You believe you are.

Stronger again;
Fresh winds,
Strong gales,
Even cyclones!

Am I welcoming them?
Tempting them?
Hoping for more,
Thirsting to learn,
Even more from pain?

This I wrote on 23rd Sep ‘06

When the world sleeps

We wander away…
Whiling our time every day.

When you are with me,
You don’t say a word.
So close, yet so far from you I feel.
Looks like the world,
Will beat us to it.
They are bound to win;
Tie us down, in the name of society.

Show me a sign,
Even a little one,
I won’t mind.
Show me a sign,
That you want to
Follow your heart;
Today and right through…

I’ll kick up a storm.
Get everyone to see,
That we were meant to be.
I’ll cajole them,
If that’s what it takes.

Trust me, I’m game,
To cross a million lakes
Of fire and, even dare
To climb, a few snow-capped peaks;
If that’s what it takes.

Let’s not wander away…
Doesn’t matter what the world will say.
Let the world sleep,
While we get back;
Get back to reality;
Surreal and so rare!

Never Alone for Long

The journey has brought
Me so far; the road winds,
The sunlight I caught,
Refreshes and even blinds.

So many people on the way.
Some shake my world,
And move away;
Some are here to stay,
Just a while longer,
Striking one more chord…

I turn to smile,
Say my goodbyes.
They say they’ll stay a while,
And see me through a few more miles…

I welcome this feeling;
Walking – never tiring.
Sometimes I feel lonely,
Look around and find company
Again; Every time I feel lonely.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Suddenly, something!

She has hurt you so much.
You are taking a different path.
She must have left you in a lurch;
Wish I could take you away from this wrath!
Show you that life is still beautiful,
Once again on your trodden path.
I will be so grateful;
Let me take you from your past…
Can’t say where we’ll go from here
But, baby I’ll make it last.
Atleast for this lifetime, here
On earth; we’ll be the perfect cast
I won’t let you get lost…

Open sea beckons

My mind is blank today.
I have no words to give you;
Have nothing to say;
Have told you everything that’s true;
Laid my heart open and bare.

I know it’s tough to love me;
I keep nothing hidden.
(but) there are secrets even I can’t see.
You can help me find them;
Together we’ll explore the sea!

Come back baby, explore the sea!
Morning, noon and even over tea…

I’ll let you find my spirit;
Show you that I can care;
There shall be no limit,
We’ll find each other everyday…
Good, bad and ugly – we’ll live with it!

I hardly know you,
And you me – I know.
Then why do I feel the way I do?
Even your thought brings a glow.
What I wouldn’t give… to hear you say this too!

Come back baby – with you…
I’ll explore this sea, so blue!

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Take your chance with me

Sleep escapes me these days;
I lay awake, thinking
Of all those words unsaid.

I have nothing to promise you,
But this much I’ll confess –
This feeling of something special is true.
Nothing more, nothing less.

Others search a thousand times,
Looking for that spark,
Those wind chimes;
Groping in the dark.

We’ve been lucky,
Pushed together by chance.
Don’t tell me you can’t see,
An opportunity to do a magical dance!

Maybe I should let you be;
Gather your baggage,
And then come back to me;
Undo all the damage

Maybe I should just let you be!
Maybe I should just lay awake every night.
Maybe, just maybe… you’ll see my point.

Not Your World

Silent, strange night.
Loneliness creeps into my head.
Nothing seems right;
Nothing seems to last.

Senses heighten! Something,
Somewhere, a flicker of hope
Flows; fills my being,
Pushes me to grope.
In the dark night,
A strange, calm light.

No! Don’t!
Not that flicker of hope
Again; My heart beats faster.
I’m a sucker for this dope;
Still thirsty for this water!

Make me stop!
Look away from his charm,
What could be;
No matter what the harm.

Make me stop!
Wishing it was me
Filling his very senses;
Giving him company;
Heightening his every reflex!

Make me stop!
Dreaming and weaving,
A world that no one knows...
He says he’s surely leaving,
To make and keep his vows…

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Make a Change with Passion

Strong thoughts run havoc
In my head…
What’s more important?
Just matters of the heart?
Matters beyond you and me?

I look around and see
Complacency in every face.
Passion is dead;
The day gets hotter,
Nobody cares.
I’ll still want a shower;
So what if I use more water?
Passion is dead!

Shake it off!
If your heart’s not right,
Your thoughts won’t be so bright!
Make a change…
First, to things close to you;
To things that can be!
The world will then
Spin a different spin…

My country is run
In a certain way…
“What have you done?”
People will say.
Nothing! Truly nothing!
I always keep problems at bay.
I tried to make my country sing…
Got stuck in bureaucracy
“It’s a cause” I said
“Oh! You should just use it,
Only for your individual benefit.”
Passion is dead!

Now, I’m back doing my thing;
Talk passionately of things I believe in.
Someone, somewhere will take note
“Ah! I remember this piece she wrote!”
Change of heart around me first!
Action and words to quench the thirst…

Soon, very soon… my heart will be stronger
I’ll take on the world much longer
A significant change I’ll make!
People like you, helping me keep awake!
(Passion is here to stay! Passion is here to stay!)

Monday, April 23, 2007

Give Me Strength

I tremble, I shake;
Break into a cold sweat.
Take him to a remote lake;
He deserves every piece of lead!

CSA, oh God! Make it stop!
Take it out of my very head…
These thoughts that hop
Every night I lay awake in my bed.

No, my baby it’s not you,
He’s the one who is bad.
He’s the one making you blue;
Hush, my baby, don’t be sad.

I look into her dark, big eyes…
Hoping I’ll ne’er have to tell her.
I feel her gentle sighs,
And realize she’s a dreamer…
(Just like me, just like me)

Oh mama! Why didn’t you hold me?
I called out for you that night!
He took me on his knee;
Said everything will be right!
Oh mama! Why did you leave me?

My baby! I know I’m paranoid…
But that’s the way it’ll stay;
Till I can take you out of this void,
Even if it turns me gray.

(Oh mama! Why didn’t you tell me?)
No, my baby it’s not you,
He’s the one who is bad.
He’s the one making you blue;
Hush, my baby, don’t be sad.

You should have hushed me;
Mama, you should have held me!
Don't tell me you weren’t there;
Don't tell me your mind was elsewhere.
I tried to tell you;
I screamed, I yelled!
I grew too soon, yes mama I grew!
I don’t know where my childhood went…

No, my baby, you be a child…
Throw a tantrum;
Run totally wild…
Don’t listen to this humdrum.
I will be there to guide!
Always be there to guide!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

She’s waiting for you!

I can see you want to move on.
I can tell you she’ll be good.
Don’t stand by memories gone;
Don’t push so hard to be rude.

Before we were together,
You gave up; went with the flow.
You have it in you to take her
Now – take her every blow.

There’s no harm;
Bring all your love,
To keep her warm.

There’s relief in your eyes –
Don’t mask it with guilt!
Fly away from unspoken lies;
Again make your life fit.

Can’t make it easier or harder;
I’ve always done it for you.
I’m throwing away the anchor
To follow the sky so blue.

There’s no harm;
Bring all your love,
To keep her warm.

She’s waiting for your move;
Anticipation in her eyes.
She has a point to prove!
Once you’re out of your disguise.

Give in to her every charm.
The energy in you
Will take her by storm.
She only waits for few;
She has chosen you…

There’s no harm;
Bring all your love,
To keep her warm.

Friday, April 20, 2007

A Friend

Let go fully…
the baggage of desire.
Rekindle, nearly
every bit of friendly fire.

The desire will sway,
the fire is here to stay.

Passion ran its frenzy,
pushing me to the edge.
Now I’m dizzy,
to be back on friendship’s ledge.

I’ll keep desire at bay;
I won’t let you loose your way.

Lust, passion, love –
I don’t understand them.
Let’s jive
back to friendship’s helm.

I’ll keep the monsters away,
and forever lock them in a cave.

I’ll be your friend
see you through every bend,
and even look out for your lover.

I’ll be tall and brave,
against this tidal wave.

Let go baby…
the baggage of desire.
Rekindle, nearly
every bit of friendly fire.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Later baby

Swing by
Later baby
Now is not the time
I’ll just drive you crazy
I don’t feel so fine

I don’t want you
To see me like this
So down and blue
I think I’ll just give you a miss

Swing by
Later baby
Just not this time
I’ll just hang on to you
And make you blue

I can’t be myself
There’s way too much nonsense
Deep down in my mind
And I know I just won’t be kind

Swing by
Later baby
It’s gonna take some time
And then maybe you’ll be mine
We’ll both be heady baby without any wine!

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Life anew

Humming along
Chaos around
Where is my heart pulling me?
The sounds of memory
Being created through the journey
Where is my heart pulling me?

Addicted to innocence

Waiting by
With a gentle sigh
Where is my heart pulling me?
The excitement grows
The anticipation shows
Where is my heart pulling me?

Slow down the pace a notch

Silent songs
Doing their rounds
Where is my heart pulling me?
The fascination multiplies
The familiarity increases
Where is my heart pulling me?

Hush my mind I don’t want no logic

Closing my eyes
I can feel your smiles
Why is my heart doing this?
Gently and silently I lay
By your side with my hair growing grey
Go away my heart… take me with you wherever you want.