Give Me Strength

I tremble, I shake;
Break into a cold sweat.
Take him to a remote lake;
He deserves every piece of lead!

CSA, oh God! Make it stop!
Take it out of my very head…
These thoughts that hop
Every night I lay awake in my bed.

No, my baby it’s not you,
He’s the one who is bad.
He’s the one making you blue;
Hush, my baby, don’t be sad.

I look into her dark, big eyes…
Hoping I’ll ne’er have to tell her.
I feel her gentle sighs,
And realize she’s a dreamer…
(Just like me, just like me)

Oh mama! Why didn’t you hold me?
I called out for you that night!
He took me on his knee;
Said everything will be right!
Oh mama! Why did you leave me?

My baby! I know I’m paranoid…
But that’s the way it’ll stay;
Till I can take you out of this void,
Even if it turns me gray.

(Oh mama! Why didn’t you tell me?)
No, my baby it’s not you,
He’s the one who is bad.
He’s the one making you blue;
Hush, my baby, don’t be sad.

You should have hushed me;
Mama, you should have held me!
Don't tell me you weren’t there;
Don't tell me your mind was elsewhere.
I tried to tell you;
I screamed, I yelled!
I grew too soon, yes mama I grew!
I don’t know where my childhood went…

No, my baby, you be a child…
Throw a tantrum;
Run totally wild…
Don’t listen to this humdrum.
I will be there to guide!
Always be there to guide!

She’s waiting for you!

I can see you want to move on.
I can tell you she’ll be good.
Don’t stand by memories gone;
Don’t push so hard to be rude.

Before we were together,
You gave up; went with the flow.
You have it in you to take her
Now – take her every blow.

There’s no harm;
Bring all your love,
To keep her warm.

There’s relief in your eyes –
Don’t mask it with guilt!
Fly away from unspoken lies;
Again make your life fit.

Can’t make it easier or harder;
I’ve always done it for you.
I’m throwing away the anchor
To follow the sky so blue.

There’s no harm;
Bring all your love,
To keep her warm.

She’s waiting for your move;
Anticipation in her eyes.
She has a point to prove!
Once you’re out of your disguise.

Give in to her every charm.
The energy in you
Will take her by storm.
She only waits for few;
She has chosen you…

There’s no harm;
Bring all your love,
To keep her warm.

A Friend

Let go fully…
the baggage of desire.
Rekindle, nearly
every bit of friendly fire.

The desire will sway,
the fire is here to stay.

Passion ran its frenzy,
pushing me to the edge.
Now I’m dizzy,
to be back on friendship’s ledge.

I’ll keep desire at bay;
I won’t let you loose your way.

Lust, passion, love –
I don’t understand them.
Let’s jive
back to friendship’s helm.

I’ll keep the monsters away,
and forever lock them in a cave.

I’ll be your friend
forever;
see you through every bend,
and even look out for your lover.

I’ll be tall and brave,
against this tidal wave.

Let go baby…
the baggage of desire.
Rekindle, nearly
every bit of friendly fire.

Later baby

Swing by
Later baby
Now is not the time
I’ll just drive you crazy
I don’t feel so fine

I don’t want you
To see me like this
So down and blue
I think I’ll just give you a miss

Swing by
Later baby
Just not this time
I’ll just hang on to you
And make you blue

I can’t be myself
There’s way too much nonsense
Deep down in my mind
And I know I just won’t be kind

Swing by
Later baby
It’s gonna take some time
And then maybe you’ll be mine
We’ll both be heady baby without any wine!

Life anew

Humming along
Chaos around
Where is my heart pulling me?
The sounds of memory
Being created through the journey
Where is my heart pulling me?

Addicted to innocence

Waiting by
With a gentle sigh
Where is my heart pulling me?
The excitement grows
The anticipation shows
Where is my heart pulling me?

Slow down the pace a notch

Silent songs
Doing their rounds
Where is my heart pulling me?
The fascination multiplies
The familiarity increases
Where is my heart pulling me?

Hush my mind I don’t want no logic

Closing my eyes
I can feel your smiles
Why is my heart doing this?
Gently and silently I lay
By your side with my hair growing grey
Go away my heart… take me with you wherever you want.